It will get better, it will get better, it HAS to get better. So Monday started with a night of on and off sleep and a horribly traumatic event involving a Babies-R-Us shopping cart and Huddy's head. I won't go into detail since it still makes me cry and sound like the worst parent ever! Then that was followed with more no napping and no sleeping. Tuesday was decent, we went to the park thinking surely that would wear them out, but still no napping that day and no sleeping that night. Wednesday, though, was school day. So that means four hours all to myself. Well the four hours is quickly forgotten as I pick the little ones up from school and Hudson procceeds to throw himself on the ground as soon as we step in the door to the house and cry and throw fits off and on for the next four hours! Hooray! That was followed by less sleeping from Hudson but a good night from Ell and Carter. So needless to say, we are going back to the doctor today. There has to be something wrong. He is still digging at his right ear and it smells terrible, gross I know. And I can not get this kid full. He ate three cinnamon rolls, a big cup of juice, and two packs of fruit snacks for breakfast this morning and still wants more. Yesterday it was two waffles, a banana, and three packs of fruit snacks. I'm tired and I need someone to tell me that, yes there is indeed something wrong and we can fix it. I love these kids more than you could, and wouldn't change my life for but at times you can feel totally worthless when you have a screaming child that you can't calm down. Here's a pic of the kids yesterday before school in their Halloween shirts. This is how Huddy looks 98.7% of the time that he is awake.